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I woke up and headed straight to the beach, I
went kayaking just to ease my stress. I was so anxious about tomorrow; what if
they don’t show up – could be good- but what if they did show up… Oh God…
please make tomorrow pass by in a blink of an eye…
I went back in, Aibileen had just started preparing
breakfast. I went upstairs had a shower then got dressed. I wanted to look formal;
it’s the first day at the office. I wore black, the entire thing: top to
bottom. I went down and sat with Aibileen to have breakfast.
Good morning dear.
Good
morning Aibileen
Why are you wearing this?
Why
what’s wrong?
It’s all black…
I know,
so it matches my soul.
Dear, at least put on a white shirt…
Ok
ok… Fine. I laughed, I took my toast with me upstairs and changed my
shirt.
Better?
Much better.
I’ll
be back at around 1. Then I need the driver to take me to any supermarket, I
need to do the grocery shopping.
It’s all right I’ll do it instead.
No
Aibileen, I want to do it. Just text me the things you need.
Ok. Take good care of yourself and good luck!
I arrived at a large building. Wow... my father did work
hard for him to leave a legacy behind, for me… I got in and asked the
receptionist where the offices are; she escorted me to the 33rd
floor. I walked with her as she toured me around the floor, then at exactly 10
I walked in the meeting room. At first I was scared, petrified to be honest,
but then everyone was so welcoming. The more I heard about their ideas, the
more I loved the place and loved the employees. They’re all hardworking, which
is exactly what I want. But I couldn’t judge from one day only. After the
meeting my secretary guided me to my office, it was overwhelmingly impressive..
The view, my god… was just mind-blowing. I could see the metro underneath, I
could see the rush hour, I could see Dubai clearly. Everything was so tidy, the
furniture crisp white. Dad.. I’m going to make you proud the way you made me
proud. I started looking at some of the projects that had to be done by the
company, I got a taste of what its like to be in my Dad’s shoes. I didn’t want
to leave; this place is going to be my new sanctuary.
I went back home, changed my clothes.
Aibileen I’m going now. I yelled as I rushed
downstairs.
Take care! Don’t forget to buy the things I asked for!
Ok!
I went out and closed the door, then got in the car.
The driver took me to a huge supermarket located somewhere close to my house. I
got down and he helped me by pushing the shopping trolley. It took me hours to buy
everything Aibileen asked for and some random things I wanted. I decided to get
some magazines to entertain myself. I picked out a few and right there,
something unwanted welcomed me back to my past…
“Claims he’s a Russian, lives a Russian life but
in reality is half Saudi half Russian. Designer Vladimir ties the knot with
Russian supermodel Ulyana. Exclusive wedding pictures inside!”
He’s getting
married… Correction, he is married…
I rushed towards the cashier and placed the magazines
I wanted. I finally arrived home, I got in the back kitchen, about to rush my
way to Aibileen and tell her what I just saw when I overheard a conversation between her and someone.
Aibileen where’s Jawaher? I removed my heels as fast as
I could so I could eavesdrop. I hid behind the door and heard everything
clearly. Its… Rashed…
She went out.
Where to?
Why are you here? Its best if you leave.
I have to see her.. Please its urgent.
This is the last time I’m going to tell you this, please leave.
Aibileen! I NEED HER!!! Can’t you see? Her heart is so fragile;
it is caged by all the problems and troubles she’s been through and needs to be
set free. It carries a lot of things, and I shall unlock it and set it free. We
both know that I am capable of doing so. Now let me in.
I’m
sorry but I can’t let you in. You don’t have the permission to enter this
house, especially if the person that owns it doesn’t want to see you! Now
please, stop if you can just listen to me for a moment. She’s been through a
lot lately… Enough heartbreaks please… I can’t stand seeing her sad anymore,
isn’t it enough what you’ve done to her? I just can’t let you in she doesn’t
deserve another heartbreak.
Please, all I’m asking for is a couple of private
minutes with her. I promise, that if I break her heart that you shall no longer
see me or hear from me ever again. Just give me a chance… Please…
The door closed, and all I could hear was one person
walking towards the kitchen. It just stopped… Everything was so quiet except
for my loud heartbeats that was ringing in my ears.
Jawaher… I know you’re in there… Can I come in? I dare
not say a word. My throat was strangled by reality, so my actions became my
words. I unconsciously walked towards him. I sat down on a chair and he pulled
one and placed it in front of me. He sat on it and began talking.
I don’t know how to begin or where to begin. I’ll
begin by saying I’m sorry for what I did, just saying things without even
considering how much each word hurts. I was forced to marry your stepsister. I’m tired of being polite, tired of pleasing the world when I should be
pleasing myself. And you, you’ve made me feel like the most special person in
the world. The more he spoke, the more I loved him. Why am I
surrendering when I should be fighting back? To the world you may be one
person, but to one person you mean the world… I’m that one person… You know
what I love? I love how when we're together all your pain and suffering goes away like it never exists. And I need to tell you this before its too late… I love you…
I stayed quiet. I did not look into his eyes; instead
I kept my gaze fixed on the details of the floor. My feelings were clouding my
thoughts, my eyes soon became blurry…
My
limbs have been backstabbed so many times; they can no longer tolerate the
pain.
I promise that I am never going to leave you ever
again.
I
lost you once. And look at me now; I’m so much better. What guarantees me that
I won’t lose you again?
I’ll be right here with you because you’ve been right
here with me all along. Someone’s got to take care of you, and that’ll be me.
When
you left me… I let it be. Because I was so afraid, I still am, and will always
be afraid that’ll you’ll compare me to everyone. Because I know I can’t
compete. I thought to myself maybe he left me.. Because I wasn’t good enough… There
are so many things I wish I didn’t do in the past, so many regretful shameful
things that I’ve done.
The past is a lesson; so don’t be afraid to look back.
Instead, confront it and fight your fears and obstacles. Everyone has fault,
errors or mistakes. And that doesn’t make me hate you or dislike you; instead
it makes me love you more for it. Perhaps I can or can’t
change you, but I know I can fix you. I can mend your broken heart, just give
me a chance. I won’t judge your past, forget that it even existed. Let’s start
all over again
Should I just bury my
past with my parents Rashed? I can’t do that… But if it weren’t for my past, I wouldn’t have been
the person I am today.
I know... I said this before, but I’ll say it again and
this will be the last time I say it. Please take it seriously. Jawaher, how
long do I have to wait?
You
make it sound like it’s in my hands… they have the upper hand, I don’t.
Luckily I came in prepared.
What
do you mean…?
There he was, kneeling down on one knee… He took out a
box and held my hand.
When I look into your eyes I can see my dreams, my
future, my life simply unravels into a beautiful fairy tale whenever you’re
with me. Being in the same room as you anywhere, even amongst a crowd of people
makes my heart buzz and beat so hard pumping my life with excitement, the way
you lock your eyes into mine jolts my body. You make me lose my breath; the
essence of every single word touched by your lips whisks my voice away
mesmerizing me more and more. I know this kitchen isn’t the perfect place to
pour myself to you, but this house is where we first officially met, where I
poured out my feelings to you. You cannot fathom the ocean or the constellation
of stars, and that’s how my love to you is. I want you to be mine not just for
life, but forever. You
will be a part of me. And I’ll be apart of you. Will you marry me?
This
was no joke. It’s a lifelong decision, a commitment. For a moment, my mind was
blank. The only thing that was beating was my heart, I noticed I stopped
breathing; I was at the peak inhaling everything in. I breathed out. I felt my heart open up, the beats were so stable, I don’t even know
what’s less than a second, but bit-by-bit my heart kept on beating for him more
and more and more…
Love
is like the skin on top of your bones. It’ll forever be stuck on you.. no
escaping. I want the whole world to know, that I love you & only you! So… I
say yes. Yes Rashed I want to spend the rest of my life waking up next to you, sharing
every moment with you.
The widest smile spread across his face, he jumped off
of the floor and hugged me really tight.
I love you! I love
you!!!
He quickly opened the box; there it was the most
beautiful ring I had ever seen. It was a unique heart-shaped diamond with
baguette diamonds on the side it was breath taking. He placed the ring on my
ring finger and hugged me tightly; he planted kisses on my cheeks, which made
my emotional state from crying from happiness to uncontrollable giggles.
Aibileen she said yes!!! He called
out for her. She walked in confused. Until she walked in and saw us, he was
facing her smiling, and I was hugging him from the back with my chin resting on
his shoulder and my arms wrapped around his waist. She gave us the weirdest
look.
What’s going on between the two of you?
We said nothing, Rashed turned his head around and we
giggled, I don’t know why but we just did?
Out
of the blue, she started laughing uncontrollably.
Awww!
Good men are hard to find, nowadays.
All
wounds heal and often they make the bond stronger. It takes time, indeed good
things come to those who wait, and I believe this saying because Rashed is the
best thing that has ever happened to me.
So
I asked Rashed what about my stepsister and him? He said he didn’t dare proceed
by proposing to her, he couldn’t.
What
about your dad? I’m sure he’s going to get mad… I think it’s best if we just
leave, leave everything behind and travel the world with Aibileen. We can
settle in London, or perhaps somewhere were they can’t find us.
It’s not mandatory to please the entire world. What’s
mandatory is that we should please ourselves only, just you and me. I don’t
care what they say, what they think, or what they’ll do. This is what we want,
and this is what’s going to happen. We will have a wedding, because every girl
deserves her moment.
He placed his hands on mine. I cannot possible
emphasize on how much I actually love it when he fills in the gaps between my
fingers, the way he intertwines his fingers with mine… a love story no one
could possibly imagine. Even the tiniest, smallest part of me loves him…We
spent the rest of the night together, I felt so happy so secure it was
indescribable. I never felt this way before.
The next day…
Rashed and I went kayaking in the morning, and
then we had breakfast together.
During the afternoon, people started to arrive at my
place. I was so worried, how are we going to tell them? The more I thought
about it the more frightened I was.
I greeted everyone and Aibileen directed him or her
towards the living room. The barbeque was set out outside. Rashed came and
welcomed me with a peck on my cheeks.
Rashed
I’m so worried…
What for?
How
are we going to tell them? What if things don’t turn out to be the way we want
it to be… I don’t want things to come in between us…
He cupped my face. Don’t worry everything is
under control. The he placed a soft kiss on the tip of my nose. I
blushed I know they saw me which made me even more nervous. Every time he
looked at me, I felt safer.
You know what they say: after a hurricane comes a
rainbow. Things did go out of control for a moment, my uncle was extremely angry;
my stepsister said something very harsh.
She’s a devil in disguise; don’t be fooled by her
angelic appearance. She spat out in anger.
Whether you like it or not. I am the one who makes the
decision. You either respect my decision or get the hell out of here. She is my
wife and you are going to respect her.
With that the placed hushed.
I walked closer to Rashed then placed my fingers on
his chin, just the tip of it, holding it firmly. I came closer and kissed his
cheek. He looked at me, smiling blankly. Just felt like it I said as I walked away. Drop
the bomb and walk away. If that’s what they want then that’s what they’re going
to get. my stepfamily stormed out of the place they all hated me even more. Well... Now the drama is over!
